God i miss her so so terribily
i mean seeing her again and hear her voice
argh.
still cant get over her
even how much i tried
How in the world can someone forget a special someone if the person was there for 6 years?
I CANT

she's beautiful inside and out
i just cant seem to find someone to match that in my eyes.
i just wonder how she sleeps everynight.
But as long its with a smile, i will fight this.
1:06 PM




Maybe not now.
But i still got hope.
'Even a patient man waits for no one'

9:23 AM



A whole week to burn.
Yesterday was exhausting.
Woke up for fri prayers near school.
den went to joe's house for some guitar hero
metallica riff can give orgasm sia
high..WOOOOOO!
Ended the day with night at the museum 2 wif marc and ian
caught the damn night show

Today was quite a diffrent day
went to zuls house for kenduri and bace tahlil
meet with riots guys
been like an eternity since i last met them
bace
everytime i go to a kenduri my heart feel sad
it reminded me of my dear granfather

ajay dan n farid could not stop laughing
coz the imam pass ajay a drink
ok not funny, but to us it was
den we talk cock
laugh laugh laugh
at memories long
of past glories in sec sch

i miss those guys.
9:05 AM



Today is the second day of my 6 weeks break
=D
i feel superbored
so met with the guys and went to joe's house for some guitar hero
haha..superfun lah!

hmm.
i need to clear my head.
really.
i know not to hope so much.
and we are just friends now.
but.
how i wish i could smell her scent.
feel her presence.
cause its when she is the person i go to or think about when
i'm down , hurt , sick , scared.
her words were heavenly.
her voice sweet yet caring.
heart of gold.
damn.
i guess i better go back to ne-yo

thinking.
just thinking
still thinking
T.H.I.N.K.I.N.G
9:31 AM



im thinking about her again.
i know im not suppose and i cnt.
but




she..
11:32 AM



haha.. i bet people will laugh when i say i had ocd
well its my own deduction that i did have when i was a kid
funny story
when i was young i was petrified of my mum
n lets say i didnt fully enjoy my childhood
i tink this led to me well have rituals that i do when i was young.
for instance,
the tiles on the house, when i enter it i will move by skipping one tile to another
if it doesnt land correctly, i will do it over again
and this went for quite a few years
i did not now until now.
haha
last time it bothered me if the cans in the fridge were not in the proper place as when i put it previously.
but dnt wry, im ok now
i tink..=D
it doesnt bother me much now
9:47 AM



Baik ah ziq.
i just wasted one day of my life watching Band Of Brothers
Frm episode one to 10
Currahee to points
8:45 AM



Hmmmm


I chose to stop and a pull a chair.



Find one corner to lepak.



I want fate to find me.




Im tired of searching for it.



Oh God...
11:13 AM