anarchy is just elvis in a spacesuit,

Friday, May 21, 2010

Wow its been so damn long..wow.

haha. just felt like writing this morning.

haiz.

yes i just sigh-ed

life is never been easy now

projexts here n there

internship coming up

its pretty mixed up right now

n i am not feeling happy internally

not with life

but just a teeny weeney small place inside my heart

it is funny how i am still missing her

what i would do to hear her voice again

i just need to ask her this 1 small question which could fix up a bit

though i know the answer could kill me off for a while and stunne me

11:26 AM

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

So yea today was abit of a shithole
but am ok now
sort out already
in squad things get settled easily

But the bigger picture,
sometimes i feel i am too much of a patient guy
too much that it is not good

And yea sometimes this blog does kinda feel emo
haha
but thats whats inside me
and what i feel inside
surprised?
people see me as a happy guy always
againts anything
i do things with a smile
except when i didnt sleep the other night
Ever since that, i tend to curl up things inside
protecting my heart

and who knew before *it* happened
i use to be so full of intricate philosophy
too intricate ur brain would explode
i was a different person den
but somehow still same

but i am a bit more open

9:34 AM

Friday, July 31, 2009

Today was a strange day.
super strange indeed.

I am still reading harry potter no.7
Now page 364
just passed the halfway mark

Today i went to go fri prayers at ghufran with rizal
i wanted to go to the mosque (for which i do not know the name)
but he say ghufran faster.
It was faster.=)

As i pray and it ended,
i tot about her
i know i shouldnt
but recently
just recently
seriously recently
she
came
back
in
my
dreams.

And the minyak attar reminded me of her scent
nt the same smell but it triggered the memory
that 1 scent that i still vividly remembered

i still think about her
but not that much
it helps soothe my confuse head
and calms my mind

Why she left me?
im still confused
still trying to understand

comprehend.

10:38 AM

Monday, July 27, 2009

Celebrated Marc 19 bdae at his house on sat.

3 words.

PHOTO

FUN

TABOO

Well today went back to school at a new block
have script ess and film language
not bad ah
i was looking forward to film language
look at film daily and critic on it.

Today the squad met and discussed on current mission status and former operations
...
And the rest is history

I wasnt feeling too well today
maybe is lack of sleep or maybe its because
nvm no point alrdy

i guess she only can come in my dreams now..=(

7:21 AM

Saturday, July 18, 2009

I felt a tear drop tonight'

its so very sudden

i knew this was going to happen

i am so afraid of seeing her

i know it will break my heart

but now i think she is happy with her life

and i have no buisness at all

i close my eyes hoping to ease the pain

People tell me

'oh there are a lot of girls out there'

i know, its just not the same

i think my heart has heart resistance

And i think if she ever knew

i am still alone here

every night i pray that she is well and happy

i just wish i leave with 1 question

Do you ever think about me?

once or at all?

i guess its up to god

How i wish i could feel her heart again

and she touched mine

all that is just left are memories

sweet but painful

I swear that you don't have to go

I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you
I had in you

To late, I'm sure
and lonely
another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now
against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

-Mayday Parade-

3 cheers for 5 years

11:09 AM

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Well its been like weeks

blocks not getting easier

VPRESS AND PCOMD

haiyo

Anyway i need remember this

The moment she left the door,

i need to close my heart

But there are signs,

But i must ignore it

I dunnoe

5:11 AM

Friday, June 26, 2009

If i made a list of things i miss

It will start with,

The way your sweet smell lingers still...

And end with

_ _ _

3:04 PM